9:00 AM
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I got up late this morning. I no longer sleep well at night. I imagine the old people at daily Mass think I'm self-indulgent and lazy because I'm not there - especially on adoration day. Like I said, I imagine stuff like that.
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So the little person who delivers my mail just climbed up the steps to try and put it in my mail box - I was told once, when the mail was wet and blown all over the hedge, that Post Office rules state the carrier is only required to do one, one arm-hand motion to insert the mail into the mail opening; That's it - they are not obliged to trouble themselves to insure all the items get all the way in the box.
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Anyway, locally we received less than an inch of snow over night, and there remained a dusting on the stairs. The little post-lady screams at me through the window, where I sat sipping my coffee, reading my prayers, "Shovel your walk!" Remember the angry look on the Munchkins faces when Dorothy's house landed on the witch? (Oh, that's right, they were happy the witch was dead. Well, you know the look I'm talking about.) That was my mail lady this morning. Why are women allowed to work anyway? Crap, I usually try to have the steps cleaned for her because I know her short little legs have such a hard time climbing my stairs - but I got up late you little... Just wait until next Christmas - no Harry and David lollipops for you!
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Oh! Oh! And get this! She drives - house to house, up and down the street. Stopping and starting the mail van, climbing in and out with great effort. If one was watching from space it would appear the van was driving in slow motion with the emergency break on.
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Oh who cares. It doesn't matter.
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10:00 AM
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Why is all the Black Power socialist crap in the background of Solange Knowles "I Decided" music video - and with Bill Clinton wearing an Afro? Watch for more propaganda as we move forward beyond next weeks Inauguration. I have never - in my life - been so disappointed in the man the citizens of the United States elected as president.
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10:01 AM
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Read this: "I find it surprising that good faithful priests and people, who would never dream of disobeying the Church normally, flock to the latest site of an apparition, despite the instructions of the local bishop. It is often their first introduction to liberalism or pick n mix Catholicism." - Source.
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I couldn't agree more - so many Catholics complain about dissident Catholics or liberal Catholics, often failing to realize they are one too.
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10:15 AM
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So anyway. "Doubt". The ending of "Doubt" was good - but the lines seemed too obvious a tie-in with the title, although, aside from being too convoluted for the dialogue, I think the following may have been what Sr. Aloysius meant when she cried, "I have doubts too."
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"I struggle sometimes too, it isn't necessarily that I doubt, but I don't always have all the answers immediately at hand either. Doing the right thing, even when it goes against what secular culture deems natural, isn't always obvious in the moment of decision. I struggle... the choices I made in faith are painful to fallen nature. I too can be swayed, or rather tempted by my emotions, confused by contrary arguments from those who are simply seeking some semblance of happiness in an otherwise dismal existence. I am often interiorly challenged, convicted, limited, by my own shortcomings, sins, and defects. I cry out in the night in the face of my own inability to solve the mystery of good and evil in the world. Nevertheless I believe - I hope - I trust in God... and that is all I have."
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10:30 AM
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What's with some people who have to correct grammar and spelling all of the time when they screw up and mis-spell on their own blogs too? One guy wrote in comments on his blog - to another commenter, "Watch your use of hyphens." What?
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10:31 AM
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It is so cold the birds and the squirrels are not even out eating the food I placed in the feeders. Mrs. Rabitowitz has been out there however. I see her tracks.
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10:32 AM
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I got up late this morning. I no longer sleep well at night. I imagine the old people at daily Mass think I'm self-indulgent and lazy because I'm not there - especially on adoration day. Like I said, I imagine stuff like that.
.
So the little person who delivers my mail just climbed up the steps to try and put it in my mail box - I was told once, when the mail was wet and blown all over the hedge, that Post Office rules state the carrier is only required to do one, one arm-hand motion to insert the mail into the mail opening; That's it - they are not obliged to trouble themselves to insure all the items get all the way in the box.
.
Anyway, locally we received less than an inch of snow over night, and there remained a dusting on the stairs. The little post-lady screams at me through the window, where I sat sipping my coffee, reading my prayers, "Shovel your walk!" Remember the angry look on the Munchkins faces when Dorothy's house landed on the witch? (Oh, that's right, they were happy the witch was dead. Well, you know the look I'm talking about.) That was my mail lady this morning. Why are women allowed to work anyway? Crap, I usually try to have the steps cleaned for her because I know her short little legs have such a hard time climbing my stairs - but I got up late you little... Just wait until next Christmas - no Harry and David lollipops for you!
.
Oh! Oh! And get this! She drives - house to house, up and down the street. Stopping and starting the mail van, climbing in and out with great effort. If one was watching from space it would appear the van was driving in slow motion with the emergency break on.
.
Oh who cares. It doesn't matter.
.
10:00 AM
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Why is all the Black Power socialist crap in the background of Solange Knowles "I Decided" music video - and with Bill Clinton wearing an Afro? Watch for more propaganda as we move forward beyond next weeks Inauguration. I have never - in my life - been so disappointed in the man the citizens of the United States elected as president.
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10:01 AM
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Read this: "I find it surprising that good faithful priests and people, who would never dream of disobeying the Church normally, flock to the latest site of an apparition, despite the instructions of the local bishop. It is often their first introduction to liberalism or pick n mix Catholicism." - Source.
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I couldn't agree more - so many Catholics complain about dissident Catholics or liberal Catholics, often failing to realize they are one too.
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10:15 AM
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So anyway. "Doubt". The ending of "Doubt" was good - but the lines seemed too obvious a tie-in with the title, although, aside from being too convoluted for the dialogue, I think the following may have been what Sr. Aloysius meant when she cried, "I have doubts too."
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"I struggle sometimes too, it isn't necessarily that I doubt, but I don't always have all the answers immediately at hand either. Doing the right thing, even when it goes against what secular culture deems natural, isn't always obvious in the moment of decision. I struggle... the choices I made in faith are painful to fallen nature. I too can be swayed, or rather tempted by my emotions, confused by contrary arguments from those who are simply seeking some semblance of happiness in an otherwise dismal existence. I am often interiorly challenged, convicted, limited, by my own shortcomings, sins, and defects. I cry out in the night in the face of my own inability to solve the mystery of good and evil in the world. Nevertheless I believe - I hope - I trust in God... and that is all I have."
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10:30 AM
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What's with some people who have to correct grammar and spelling all of the time when they screw up and mis-spell on their own blogs too? One guy wrote in comments on his blog - to another commenter, "Watch your use of hyphens." What?
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10:31 AM
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It is so cold the birds and the squirrels are not even out eating the food I placed in the feeders. Mrs. Rabitowitz has been out there however. I see her tracks.
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10:32 AM
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Fr. Blake also asks on one of his posts, "What is it that makes Catholic-lite so attractive?" I think he knows the answer, but I'll write what I think.
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Not everyone is able to accept the fullness of Catholic teaching in the beginning of their conversion, yet they have a very deep, very real longing for God. We see this in the Gospel - when people cannot at first accept all of the teaching, they go away sad, oftentimes mad. Some stay, but when things get really challenging, such as happened in John's narrative about the Bread of Life, more go away. Nevertheless, some remain, even stumbling across solid teaching - but only after growing disillusioned after a long time spent in the outer courts of the temple. Then, someone, or some one's example of patience and kindness, or even some event, suddenly moves them to embrace the fullness of Catholic teaching.
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In the meantime, heterodox parishes can be gateways for those not ready for full immersion into Catholic teaching. I know a few former dissident Catholics who came out of such parishes and came around to accept Roman Catholic Church teaching in total. Of course, heterodox churches can be gateways to hell too - but not everyone is going to heaven.
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(And just because I wrote this does not mean I approve of unsound teaching or departing from sacramental formulas or the like. These things can be corrected.)
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10:55 AM
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Some of my friends may have noted that I have been rather upset since shortly after Christmas. I heard a story about a priest, outwardly faithful, orthodox - he got up in the middle of the night for adoration - did all the right Bishop Sheen things for keeping a priest faithful - and yet was sleeping with at least one person he was guiding spiritually. In the name of love. I guess it was his interpretation of Theology of the Body. I know crap like this happens - we've seen it with more than one EWTN priest.
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Remember, no one is ever too old to be scandalized. I have to repent every day. (Authentic scandal causes other people to sin or fall away from the faith.)
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So anyway, that is why I repeat things like: "It doesn't matter." "I'm sick of all the religious BS." And, "Words in a world of lies." Or quote Psalms such as; "Help O Lord, for good men have vanished: truth has dwindled from the sons of men. Lies they speak, one to another, with lying lips, with a false heart." - Ps. 11 "All have left the right path, depraved every one: there is not a good man left, no, not even one." - Ps. 13
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So yeah. It's not that I doubt.
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